Hi, Tim
I like you do not celebrate the holidays for many reasons,
The christian beleifs are not of my beliefs, I am native American and I worship in the way of the elders (the old beliefs). And you are right just because the date on the calendar changes it does not mean that your problems will go away, I have so many things going on in my life besides going to college full time that I also have to deal with: #1 I am a recovering alcoholic of 5 years and staying sober and true to myself and to those that I love is a daily constant, #2 the new year will bring with it the lose of losing more of the people that I love to death, #3 bills and bills and more bills will continue, #4 my husband's mental illness will probably not get any better and I will have to make decisions accordingly to what is best for me and my daughter.
All in all things will stay pretty much the same but some things will change, some things will change because I make them change, because there is a need for change. Because I have a daughter who loves me and because I know in my heart and soul that after all the pain that I have suffered in my life of being abused by others and abuse that I have inflected on my self (with the alcoholism), that life is worth living and is very precious. And the realization that I have come so far in dealing with the pain of the past that one day I will find true happiness.
Even thought it doesn’t seem like it sometimes that we are in control of our own destiny we are. We have the choice of how we handle things, not to say that we have control of what others do to us but we have the choice of how we react to it.
I do not celebrate the New Year my self, but I do spend the day in quite to honor and remember my brother who died and to honor and remember my ancestors who have passed. We can each celebrate New Year's in our own way that is what makes us unique.
Starting the new year does not have to be a happy time it can be a time of reflection and planning for the new year ahead.
Most importantly Tim spend the New Year doing what feels best for you, take the time to think about what you can do in the new year to handle the problems that you are having right know, and those that you might encounter in the new year, and what you can do to change them.
Tim I do wish you love and health and as much happiness as your heart can hold in the New Year. :)
Love & Happiness
Autumn
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