[Steve6]

It's been hell for me the past couple of months. I've been able to do very little and was going through a living nightmare. Not alone the past few months but even years. However things got very bad recently and I was all over the place. I was running over to the doctors every few days. I had a racing mind, panic attacks, drivng off in my car not knowing where I was going, Binge eating, not being able to carry out one task all day, extreme levels of anxiety, mood changes every hour, my doctor said I had Bipolar but wouldn't prescribe anything until I was examined by a psychiatrist.

I was then sent to see a psychiatrist fairly urgently at the start of November, and talked everything out I don't remember much about what happend during the chat, but I was dignosed with ADHD that day which I knew nothing about, and he said I was living with it since I was very young which explains an awful lots of things I went through and felt when I was small and in recent years. Plus I had problems with substance abuse, always running away from school, and a host of many other things, and it was all caused by this ADHD. It's nearly always dignosed in children but sadly in my case it was missed, and I had to suffer till now. I'm so angry with a lot of people at the moment my parents and my school most of all.

I'm on a medication now.. a proper medication that I have no side effects from that I should have been on years ago, instead of the anti depressants, and to be honest I feel very different and it's amazing. I haven't felt certain things in years. I don't feel near as heated and I feel a bit more focused aswell. I'm still a bit snappy and aggressive somedays and have bad lapses, but the nurse said it's going to take until easter till I'm better and it will take a bit longer till I'm fully better because I've also developed anxiety disorder from it. But after years of hell and so much problems I'm getting the help I need to get my life back on track. I'm so upset though I've lost so many years, when things could have been very different for me. I have lots of potential but never achieved anything. I was never in the right frame of mind to anyway. But I'm eager to achieve things when I'm back on track. I haven't played the XBOX in years, and recently I'm obsessed with playing it, I can't get enough of it. I'm also after losing my craving for junk food too. I nearly get sick when I eat a bar, and a few months back, I had an incredible craving for sweets. Things are changing very slowly but they are changing, and at long last. I'm seeing a nurse twice a week aswell, where she sets me little tasks and helps me with things, so I'm happy with that.